Paige wastes more time being creative and creating pictures to reflect her feelings. I suspect this was supposed to represent what I was telling her. Fuck you Paige!, everything you told me was a BIG FUCKING LIE.

Paige was just too stupid and brainwashed by the dick heads she was choosing to spend time with instead of dealing with the responsibilities she was supposed to be. Is there no end to the lies this girl told me. If everything I said was a lie then this site would not exist and the house would be a remaining a dump. The fact is the house is turning into something stunning, it's quickly changing it's face from dump to the dream home Paige knew it could be and wanted so badly. Just as I said it would but better then I thought. Paige broke my heart by being a cheat and a liar. And yes, every promise by Paige was either broken or a fucking a lie. But it will be her that gets hurt in the end, Karma tends to work that way.

After coming to terms with the fact Paige was never going to return and try to mend any of the mess she created. I decided it was time to clear out her belongings. She has been gone for several years now, well she never really come here. She just moved her things here to get me out of the road then fucked around with Shane Wilkinson behind my back. I don't know her reasons for not taking her possessions or not giving me back the keys to the house but can only come to the conclusion that it is her way of keeping me as an option. She will regret her loss no doubt, but Paige made her choice. But that is another story....

Anyway, while clearing out her piles of shit she has thrown everywhere throughout my house I come across yet another letter from Paige. I really can't believe this letter, it made me cry, made me angry, then it made me pity the girl that wrote these words.

I hope Paige does in fact not love me, because if she should ever wake up one day and discover she has made a mistake, it maybe her last moments of happiness. I can't believe the lies in this letter, for fuck sake, its a joke surely. I seriously think Paige has no concept of the word sorry or gratitude. She is right, a crappy card does not make up for her behavior. Paige was just sitting around unappreciating me and everything I ever did for her. She is a taker and doesn't give anything but these stupid letter to make up for her behavior. Paige did not value my efforts, my love and most importantly, my friendship! Paige has been a complete bitch and yes, never treated me like an arsehole, but she does treat me like the biggest cunt in the world. And it will not change because I never chose to leave Paige and always left the door open for Paige to return and make an attempt at reconciliation. I never stopped wanting to know her and never stopped loving her even despite her behavior. What is on this paper heart is just words, the worst words that can ever be written in the form of hurtful lies. As if it was not bad enough with the way Paige was treating me, her heart was so paper thin that her way of showing me she cared and wanted to show me gratitude was shameful.

If Paige was ever sorry and wanted to show gratitude then why would she do the things she done.

Paige's way of saying thanks was to lie to me repeatedly about her feelings. Sleeping around behind my back for a year and a half and putting my heath at risk by doing it with a slimy piece of scum like Shane Wilkinson. Then professing her love repeatedly to convince me she wanted to buy a house with me on a island. Borrow $70,000 dollars off my pensioner parents to do so. Then fuck off and leave me with a house to restore, a dog that missed her and a loan of over a quarter of a million dollars. Not to mention serious medical conditions from her abuse and harassment from the police. And worst of all, a heart that will never mend or trust another love again... Paige Sorry!!!, no, I don't think she is. What the fuck was she thinking... With friends or lovers like this, who needs enemies. The song "I hate you so much right now - grrrrrrrr" is currently stuck in my head.

After being with Paige for so many years and doing so much for her on a regular basis without even a thank you most the time. It was letters like this that made me not care that Paige could be so fucking demanding and selfish. I would and still do spend many hours a day working on this cunt of a website for Paige, I don't have a choice because Paige made it my career to do so. The abuse I would receive for not concentrating on her made it virtually impossible to pursue my own career. But letters like this would make me think she was worth it. To have someone you love with all your heart think and love you so deeply in return meant more to me then receiving any gratitude for the work I constantly would do.

Little did I know that I was being taken for granted on purpose and being used by someone who didn't give a fuck about me or my career. Paige's only concern was what that she was getting what she needed to fulfill her dreams. Dreams that would change as quickly as the wind. Everything was a trade off with Paige for a "maybe". If Paige wanted her hair done I would ask if we could perhaps spend some time together afterwards, like any couple should. I always got a maybe in return, maybe she would do something with me or for me.

Maybe she would fuck me instead of Shane Wilkinson for a change, maybe she would be nice, maybe she would do something for me which wasn't centred around her getting something she wanted. It is only now that I can look at these pathetic letters (of which there are 100's) and see them for what they are. Which is nothing more then broken promises, lies and emotional manipulation to get as much out of me as possible. I now hate myself for ever believing in Paige and these fucking letters that are full of lies and more "maybe's". Maybe I will fuck you Joseph for doing so much for me and show you how I care. But maybe I wont because I am so worn out from fucking Shane Wilkinson behind your back that what you can do is nurse me back to health so I can do it again.

How can someone love and feel so deeply for someone then be fucking around behind their back. I never wanted to control Paige or tell her what she should/could do with her life. But she certainly did it to me. I would let her go out with who ever she wanted without me and never question her actions. When the whole time I should have opened my eyes to what Paige was doing, and that was being a liar, a cheat and a user. I hate myself for giving my heart everything I had to give to someone so selfish and heartless. I love the Paige that "was" but hate the fact that she has done so much bad I would be an idiot to let her back into my life. And it makes me wonder if she ever actually was that girl. It is better to be alone then to be treated like a worthless piece of shit until someone needs money, their hair done, a car fixed, rent paid, photos shoots for friends, cutting her fat ugly mothers hair etc etc etc etc etc etc. FUCK U Paige! give your bullshit lies and pretend love to someone else, Honey deserves a better mother and I certainly deserve better then you. Your words are worthless and only cause irreversible harm to innocent people. It's your Karma and what goes around comes around.

Yep, you guessed it, more lies to Joseph. Keep him in the dark about the truth and feed him bullshit to keep him happy and working. What the fuck should Paige care if her lies lies and deceit hurt anybody, as long as it doesn't hurt her or get in the way of her having fun and getting what she wants. There is no way of me understanding these fucking cards, letters, notes, scraps of paper that Paige would leave around for me. No wonder I fell so hard for the woman. What man wouldn't fall for this sort of shit. She could be a fat assed fucking whale and you would still learn to love her with promising words like this. Your a liar Paige and your words do nothing but incite hatred in me now. They are not from your heart, they are from your guilt at what you were up to. And if you don't do it to your new boyfriend then you truly are a horrible person.

Paige and Joseph
I Luv the way you lie!

Paige and Joseph at Inskip Point, opposite the world famous Fraser Island for their "what used to be" an annual trip away for the happy looking couple. Paige and Joseph used to pack up their funky restored 1960's caravan and the Rangie and head off to the amazing Inskip Point to chill out and shoot content for this site and make lots of luv. It was a great time full of wonderful adventures and heaps of luv. I miss those days with this girl, it's a shame she is dead now and never to return. Nothing lasts forever, but it could have. But that takes dedication, lots of luv and even more loyalty through the hard times that every couple go through that can make couples grow even closer. Joseph gave more love then he had to give, gave more loyalty then one should expect from anyone, and mountains of dedication in every shape and form and still does. People often get led astray, and sometimes it seems (to Joseph anyway) that women find this quite difficult. Always keeping people as an option rather then life partner. Stick around and pretend to love but always keep your options open just in case a better one comes along. Joseph was a big option for Paige, she never wanted him as a soul mate. If something better should come along then Paige was on it like a bucking bull. But things are not always as they seem. Sometimes the grass looks greener somewhere else. Until you get closer and see it's actually just mould growing on a pile of shit like Shane Wilkinson scum. With all the tears Joseph shed for Paige his grass grew greener and it continues to flourish. It's Funny how karma works!.

Well, isn't this just lovely...
While Joseph was working as a Hairdresser during the day, and risking his life working as a Tree Lopper on the days he wasn't at the salon. Or when he was editing my photos and working on my site until four in the morning or driving around to do clients that couldn't make it to the salon. Or shooting new models to add to my site all so he could pay the share of the loan that I wasn't paying and to make what I told him was my dreams come true. I would take this time to chat, hang out, go out, make love to my Saint Shane Wilkinson and do what ever he wanted even though Shane had a partner also. Joseph was so busy keeping my affairs in order that I had enough time to sit around and draw pretty pictures of Shane. Just like I did for Joseph to win him over and piss his girlfriend off so she would leave him then I could use Joseph all for my own gain.

It also gave me plenty of time to think about Shane and everything he does for me. And he had money too!, Joseph had money also, but that was always tied up paying my share of the bills. But Shane was the one who deserved my gratitude, not Joseph. Here is a picture of Shane, such a wonderful person that he deserved to be given a Saint Hood by me.

Shane was meant for me, and I was meant for him just like the Jewel song I recorded in his dedication. Being with Shane while Joseph took care of all my responsibilities is justified as long as he doesn't know. To fuck with Joseph, he can rot in my debt for all I care. I know he is stuck on an island chained to a mortgage, because I put him there, I know he can't get near any women. And all I have to do is make excuse after excuse to not go home and I can hang out with Shane or whoever I want for that matter. I even got Joseph to pay for a unit in the city for me so I could fuck Shane without a care, I didn't tell Joseph that though my stupid flat mate did. Joseph is so stupid and believing, or was I just an extremely deceiving and dishonest cunt towards him. Who cares as long as I am having fun , who cares about the costs and consequences, as long as it doesn't affect me I could not care any less. Shane Wilkinson is my saint and saviour... I luv him...

U
D U M B A S S
W A N N A B E
S T A R F U C K E R

Paige gets busted cheating on Joseph again and he defends her by choosing to put his trust again in a worthless piece of trash cheater. Joseph's cousin had come over to stay and he had always had his reservation about Paige because she was such a fucking tight ass, and not in the way we like. While he was there he was concerned as to the reason why Paige was so nervous around her computer and decided to keep an eye on her and what she was up to. What he discovered while Joseph was working to pay her bills was that Paige was sending the photo's Joseph took to build her LuvPaige.com to guys off facebook and myspace discussing all the wonderful ways they could fuck around behind Joseph back. Fuck You Paige. You should be ashamed of yourself!

What the fuck, lets play with Joseph and his families minds for that matter.

Talk about a total head fuck but it was the only fuck I was going to get for over two years out of my pathetic excuse for a girlfriend or friend for that matter. Refer to the cunt (Shane Wilkinson) above for the reason for that. But you have to keep Joseph the fucking dumb ass in the dark, who else is going to do all the work producing and editing content to splatter Paige's face over places like myspace and facebook. Well it was nice to at least think Paige cared for a moment anyway. I think Paige got the name wrong and should really have been putting Shane Wilkinson and not Joseph. I don't know why she didn't just buy a house with Shane instead of wasting seven years of my life filling my head with fucked up promises and lies. Oh that's right, maybe it was because the scum sucking cunt actually had a fiance that he was cheating on with Paige. They fucking deserve each other, oxygen thieves.

This letter hurts because it is the worst lies I have ever heard...

What, I Love You Always

All I ever did for Paige was everything she ever wanted and asked for

I gave her my heart and my unconditional love...

My friendship and trust...

Obviously Paige was in love, she gave me enough signs But then she turned around and treated me with more hatred then a Jew for Nazi Germany. If Paige spent more time making love then putting it on paper to proclaim it then maybe things would be different now. So many lies and wasted hours and I am sure these were not made to make me hate her or to give content to this site.

Sadly, Paige new exactly what she was doing and I was stupid to believe in her.

I was going through the files that Paige gave me to edit for her site. I come across this photo of me she had played with.

It confuses the fuck out of me why she would bother to make a picture like this. The way Paige has treated me does not resemble the feelings of someone who loves you. This is the biggest crock of bullshit I have ever fucking seen. Well that's a lie also I guess. When I think of some of the other things she has given me, this is a mild lie!.

I got bored one day, plenty of time to get bored when your locked up on a island. So I decided to have a play with some photos also and make a few changes to correct what Paige was really trying to say.

Paige's I Luv You Notes

Paige would constantly leave me notes like this around the place, it was a great way of sucking me into her web. They would be everywhere and sometimes they would even get embarrassing. I had a girlfriend when I met Paige and she was my genuine best friend. I loved Paige a lot but she was my friend and I know how to keep my dick in my pants. I love to whip it out but I save that for the woman I am in love with. One day while hanging out with my girl, Paige come around and gave me a hand painted tin with a love heart on it for my birthday. When I opened it it was full of luv hearts and love notes that fell out over the floor everywhere. Needless to say what happened after that, it had it's desired effect that Paige was expecting and it was not long before my girl left and Paige had me as her own full time slave.

Paige does a picture of Joseph for a change.

After going shopping to buy Paige some lingerie for a photo shoot. Paige decided to play around making funny pictures while Joseph worked on her site. I wish she had helped me to get things done instead of fucking around all the time. It hurts to see all this now. Knowing all the work I have done to give Paige what she wanted and asked for and all I see is these silly things full of lies. Paige finally got off her ass one day to do some work. But unfortunately it was to fuck me over and render the majority of my efforts useless and worthless. Thanks Babe! Luv U 2

I am getting really sick of finding these pieces of art by Paige that she gave me. There is just so fucking many of them that it confuses the fuck out of me even to this day. I can't lie, I do love Paige even today, that will never die. That is just a part of me and it is something I am starting to hate. But Paige went to such extreme measures to declare her love to me and made certain that I dedicated every fucking minute of my life while with her doing something to make her feel loved.

But for fuck sake, I certainly hope that the people that made Paige do the things she did will be there if it should ever fall apart for her. Because I doubt they will be. Because I don't believe that I could let her back into my life after the way she has treated me. So she better hope to hell that she does in fact not love Joseph the cunt that did so many horrible things to her that she should would want to make horrible notes for him.... Go figure that one out...

Paige had always wanted a motor bike and Joseph being the absolute fucking bastard once again had been paying a brand new bike off for (same as a fucking house!) her as a birthday present. Trouble was she was to fucking busy cheating with Shane and riding with Henry on his bike to come home (even for Joseph's birthday) and get the surprise. What a dumb ass! No I stand corrected! Joseph your a fucking dumb ass that should not have been buying such a selfish bitch anything besides a bus ticket to get the fuck out of your life you idiot. What a joke!
ANYONE INTERESTED IN A BRAND NEW, NEVER RIDDEN MOTOR BIKE!
EMAIL ME FOR ENQUIRES - $4500 STRONG - PAID $5700 AND IT MUST GO

Paige gave me this letter in the form of a scroll, it was one hell of a mind fuck. I loved it at the time but now I know it is just more bullshit lies. It does make me realize that I'm not the cunt and that Paige has some serious issues to deal with but it still plays on my mind. As it should, if I had given it back to her and said don't be such a lying bitch, because you know you think I'm a cunt and one day when your finished getting what you want out of me you will express your true feelings, I would be a cunt. But to actually say that she takes me for granted and will show her gratitude one day then fuck me and my family over as her way of showing her gratitude is just plain, well, taking me for granted. I got so many of these letters from Paige it got tedious. If you take someone for granted, don't tell them that you know you take them for granted and that one day you will show your gratitude. Show it instead. Actions speak far louder then words so get off your fat ass and show some gratitude. Don't cheat on them, don't take their hard work of thousands of photos and post them all over myspace and facebook to find guys and girls to cheat on me with. Don't open a website to fuck me over, don't lie to me, don't assault me, don't spit in my face and tell me I'm not worthy to have your children then kick me in the balls to make sure no one else can. Try cleaning up, or cooking a dinner for once, or wash up. Try putting something sexy on for me for a change and fucking my brains out. Instead of having me buy you a nice pair of shoes, a dress and lingerie that I will never get to see on you. Then wear that exact outfit out with Shane Wilkinson a dude I don't know and fuck his brains out. Fuck You Paige! Showing gratitude is doing something for someone who has dedicated time and love to you and on you. NOT FUCKING AROUND BEHIND THEIR BACK!

Gratitude is defined in many different ways, maybe some people should learn more about what gratitude means.
Gratitude on wiki may help for those who ain't got a fucking clue. If someone can't show at lease some gratitude for anything that is done for them, then they should do everything for themselves. You should never expect gratitude for doing something for someone, you should always do things because you want to. But gratitude is a great way of showing thanks when someone does. Gratitude can cost nothing and can be as cheap as a hug. That's CHEAP AS A HUG, NOT A CHEAP HUG I'M TALKING ABOUT.

Paige expressing her love once again. Shame she couldn't have put this effort into actually helping me with this site instead of playing around with silly things that were just full of lies. I loved receiving them but really what is the point if you are going to send things like this then expect the person you are giving it to to work like a cunt for you while you show no gratitude and treat them like a cunt.

Confusing as fuck....

I am sick of looking at these lies from a liar and a cheat and if it wasn't for my little Honey Bunny I would delete the shit. But the fact is Princess Paige left us in so much debt that Honey needs cash to pay for her care that Paige was to fucking selfish to offer.

we obviously meant fuck all to TO Paige so why do it!

Paige expressing her love yet again. For fuck sake, no wonder I thought this chik was in luv with me. I mean how much of this stuff can one person produce! I certainly showed my luv to Paige in too many fucking ways. But shit, this is a small percentage of this sort of thing that I received from Paige.

This one must have taken hours!!!!!

What she could have done was get out of bed and pull me off the computer and say you can stop working on my content and website now babe. It's three in the morning and you have to work in the morning chopping trees to pay my loan. Why don't you come to bed and I will show you my love instead of me drawing these pictures that in the future will have as much meaning as the scrap piece of paper I am drawing it on.

I know Paige meant it, but if that was the case why be such a cunt and fuck it all up by fucking around behind my back with a scum like Shane Wilkinson.

I had just flown out to Japan to go to my brothers wedding. It was a well deserved break and a chance to get off the computer and stop working on Paige's photos, website and anything else she could have me working on 24/7 with no gratitude. I had not long touched down in Osaka, and while waiting around I decided check my emails. To my surprise I received a lovely letter come poem from my little Princess Paige. It was great to receive it, and it made me feel that the feelings I had of Paige fucking me over one day might be wrong. Despite the ever present warning signs.

Well Paige, you only had to deal with nine days without me. It has now been almost four years since you locked me up in this house on a island to deal with your bad debts and dishonesty. I only have another twenty one fucking years to go and the emptiness I feel inside makes me want to cry on a good day, and die on a bad day. Your lies cut deep.

I had not been away for ages and it was nice to go overseas to Japan and hangout with my brother. It was a shame that the majority of my stay was fucked up by Paige's behavior once again. No sooner then I had boarded the plane Paige was setting out to fuck US over. The brains of this woman will never cease to amaze me. Sometimes she can be so extremely smart.

Just another Birthday card from Paige.
Full of bullshit lies!

To my wonderful boyfriend:
If I am so wonderful why cheat on me and treat me like a cunt!

Happy Birthday:
Happy Birthday, for fuck sake, as soon as I got you the house for you you never even come home for my birthday. It was more important you went for a ride on a bike with a guy I don't even know. That was not my wish list Paige! Did ya fuck him behind my back too..... FUCK YOU!

Lots of love always:
Will love you with a punch in the head and a kicks to in the balls!

What started out as a beautiful afternoon/evening BBQ with friends while enjoying the stunning sunset over the islands. Turned out to be a disaster and another night I will never forget. Paige was not supposed to be drinking, it was becoming a habit. It is far from me to stop people doing or taking what ever they choose and it was her choice to drink so I let her go and hoped she would be responsible. Things were lovely for a while and I had been playing with Paige and trying to be romantic so I made an attempt at writing her name by moving the camera around while pointing it at the faery lights to use them as a kind of light pen. As time progressed Paige got more intoxicated and the people we were with are too nice and did not want to stop Paige either. What started as Paige having a shot of Sambucca turned into Paige sculling most of the bottle, from the bottle.

We all know the effect this will have on anyone and it certainly had its way with Paige. Later in the evening after the local pub had shut a few left overs made their way down to the BBQ. One of the barmaids who had only been on the island for a couple of weeks had turned up and she was already smashed. Being a small island she had already managed to get herself a fine reputation for fucking a bunch of the less then desirable locals and word had gotten around. Paige had all of a sudden found a new friend and to my horror phone numbers were exchanged. It was not long before Paige and her were dancing on the table and were putting on one hell of a show. I was not drinking and the sight of my long term girlfriend dancing around with some sluts hands down her pants while she grabbed her ass did not turn me on or make me feel lucky at all. When someone made comment to them about their behavior the skank (not Paige) yelled out that she didn't give a fuck and all she wanted to do was fuck around. Paige then proclaimed to everyone that she didn't give a fuck about me either and all she wanted to do was fuck around also. I had understandably had enough and I was also asked to remove Paige from the premises. I pulled Paige from the table and took her home.

By the time I got Paige home she was a mess, something about that cold air and a drive home that fucks people when they're smashed. Paige threw up over all the dashboard, windscreen and upholstery of my Range Rover, it was now a lovely shade of black Sambucca. When we inside I stripped my little princess naked of her vomit soaked clothing and gave her a sponge bath. When she was clean I carried her to bed and tucked her in hoping she would snuggle up with Honey Bunny and sleep it off. I went to have a shower myself because needless to say I was also covered in Paige's stomach contents. I had just sat down to have a cup of tea and check my emails when Honey Bunny returned to me covered in Sambucca vomit. I then had to wash her and give her a blow dry so she wouldn't catch cold and then it was back to changing the sheets on the bed and washing Paige again. It made no difference, Paige kept reenacting Linda Blair in the exorcist all night. I had no choice but too watch over her giving my unconditional love, support and care all night.

I grabbed my pillow and slept on the floor with the dogs beside the bed that night so I could keep an eye on the girl I loved so much because Paige wouldn't stop throwing up everywhere. I got no sleep and had to be up at 5am to get the ferry then drive for an hour and a half to get to my tree lopping job. Paige wasn't helping me out and the bills kept coming so I had to go to work. I took photos that night of Paige naked in a pool of her own vomit, not my best images of her to say the least. But pictures for nothing else but to show Paige what the man she treats like a cunt has to deal with. When I got home that evening I cooked dinner for Paige, washed up the dishes for Paige, washed the sheets and Paige's clothing for Paige. When I asked if she was going to help me she started an argument and stormed off to the ferry. To be with Shane Wilkinson no doubt. I do miss and love Paige with all my heart, but not that Paige. And as time goes on, my heart understands my head a little more each day. That she is no good for me and I deserve better, but I am locked into a life and debt that Paige created then ran away from leaving me to pick up the pieces. It could have been a faery tale dream come true our relationship and what we achieved together, but Paige's behavior has made it a Steven King horror story......

More of the same fucking puss that now just makes me want to throw up!

WHY THE FUCK SPEND YOUR TIME CREATING FUCKING LOVE HEART FUCKING FAERY BULLSHIT DECLARING YOUR LOVE IF ALL YOU ARE GOING TO DO IS ACT LIKE A COMPLETE FUCKING CHEATING SLUT BEHIND SOMEONES BACK.

It is a insult to my intelligence and to your credibility.

What is the motivation, I don't know.

I loved this girl, I loved her so I treated her with respect and loved her.

But Paige, your behavior has been disgusting and you should be fucking ashamed.